| We have lots to say but no way of going about it. We can't keep running in circles, repeating all the negatives. I know I'm taking part in this shit and being unwelcoming to the idea of actually talking. But maybe I just don't want to anymore. I'm tired of being told I'm not good enough to do anything. I'm trying to live life on my own, no fam, no parents, no help from anyone. We found a fucking apartment, close to the speedline and convenient for me to get to work, and we had a pool and rent would only be about 300 a months for me. Fuck it, no ones cutting me a break. No ones giving me any slack. I need a place to fucking live. I don't care if I sleep on a floor, I'm willing to do that shit. Anything to get myself the fuck out of this place. No more shitty Albuquerque, no more school. Just back on the East coast, back "home", which is a joke cause I don't have a home anymore. I just need to grow up and get away. For good. |